Steve-Right on! Good luck with the "Project P." I am sure it will slowly come to shape! Just let the creative process flowwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

Brett

Ouija Board--->Project P---->Presidential Debate----------> All tricks against rebirthing----> you MUST work that line into some lyrics, like only you can!!!
J

Like giving birth all this.

Yea the 'debates' will hopefully be interesting even thought they are entirely scripted. I think I'm just gonna watch them until I get annoyed. After after I get annoyed I'm just going to wait for the Daily Show to come on because Jon Stewart is a comical genious.
-Aaron

PIANO

Curiouser and curiouser said Alice....

Intrigue us some more...

RP
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"Ouija Board--->Project P---->Presidential Debate----------> All tricks against rebirthing----> you MUST work that line into some lyrics, like only you can!!!
J"

lol jezebel!

Thank you Jessica, I serve at the pleasure of (insert name here)....I'm here all week....

Damm, I wish I was watching the debates, but nooooooo, I am creating powerpoint photo albums, and beginning web page design...where is Steve when I need him....I need a technogeekporn superhero..

"technogeekporn superhero.." wow, that was great

I'm tellin' ya Wendy, I have been a bit off my game, a bit cranky lately, a bit forlorn, but, when my sense of humor comes back, all is right with the world, Wendy, wendy, wendy, color me green with envy, you travelin' fool!!
jezzi

Well Jezzi I have to agree 100% with your last word.
I is a fool. :)

Steve,
"After reading all the comments about frightening Ouija Board experiences, last night I kept seeing things out of my peripheral vison as the hours stretched on. Got more and more freaky in my work room."
and so it begins.

Wendi!!! you were within about an inch of inspiring me to head over to NY too! (so that I don't have to choose on the 23rd...which I remember being jealous of you going to VR) However...luckily my unemployed ass came to my senses and I desided not to. But you are awesome! I love spontenaity, and if I wasn't broke, in debt and unemployed....I'd proably be there for sure!!

Well I do have a job but I'm flat broke too and in major debt but I figured that I'm always going to be broke and I rather be broke and go to New York than be broke and do nothing. And about the job thing I need to stop visiting the web so frequently if I want to keep my job. Pretty soon I'll be joining the unemployed club too.

If you can get the plain tickets you're more than welcome to stay with me and that goes for anyone else. Last time I went to phoenix and Vegas to see VR my friend Candace totally hooked me up. (I got my airfare through jet blue)

I'm a tiny bit scared to go alone but I'll survive.

So again, if you want to go you don't need to worry about the room.

I meant the unemployment club :)

A website hey jezzi? speaking of websites, my domain contract is up today and i decided not to renew. it's kinda sad in a way but oh well, that's less one expense for this year!

Hey Wendy, is that "plain" tickets as opposed to "Salt and vinegar"?

Sorry...couldn't resist!

Hey Steve, hope the ouija board isn't still freaking you out in the wee small hours :)

(thinking the new song could be called "technogeekporn")
RP
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Sorry...

Just realised you have Mark Lanegan band's Bubblegum on your listen links...(either I tunnelvision surf, or it hasn't been on there long!)

...what do you think of it?

(I played it to death when I first got it, and it's got some fantastic touches to it - I especially like the Polly Jean contribution, but then I have to give a local girl support!)

RP
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So STEVE what did u think of the debate?????? Noone wants to talk to me about politics...lol touchy subject huh. Hope all is well Peace n' luv

So my brother comes to me crying this morning asking me for $200 and I’m feeling a little bad that I blew over $700 this past couple of weeks so I couldn’t lend him them money even if I wanted to. He was about to sell his computer to a “friend” for the money when I asked my mom to go ahead and front him the money in my name. (if it was coming from her he wouldn’t pay her back but that's another bag of bones). I swear family affairs are hard enough and then we have throw in bad financial situations to add to the fire.

I’m totally filled with guilt right now. I was supposed to go to Mexico and visit my grandpa (haven’t been there or seen him since the 10th grade) for a week then I decide I don’t have enough money so I hold up my trip until spring break. And as soon as I win a little money what do I do, I go all psycho and book a trip to New York. Now my grandma is coming in a few days and I don’t know how I’m going to explain that I can’t go back with her to Mexico but I’m going in a fun filled adventure to New York and then to Phoenix. (I’m not even going to tell them I’m going alone)

Guilt blows major chunks.

Abby, you are doing the right thing by not going. I don’t know what was up with me yesterday. The things I’ve done this past year have been totally out of character. After this trip that’s it for me. I need to start acting my age.

Happy Friday everyone and sorry about the personal post. It's easier to tell you guys than tell my family.

wendy...I'm feeling you....guilt is the glue that holds our family together. Ask yourself, is guilt a GOOD feeling? If it's not a good feeling, then it comes from someplace bad. Do you believe in a higher power? Do yu think your higher power would want to give you BAD feelings? Then, it must come from that OTHER place...

I know, not making sense, I just felt guilt for so long for so many things that were not of your control. What does "acting your age" mean? Does it mean giving up your inner spirit of adventure? You feel guilty because you are spending your money on a once in a lifetime adventure, instead of family obligations. You had already decided to visit your grandpa in the spring, have the strength of your decision to stand up for yourself.
Grandmas, well, there's another story. Nod your head, give her kisses, tell her you will see her in the spring

As far as your brother, really wendy, you don't have to feel guilty about not having an emergency fund for other people in your family...

I know, it's easy to give advice, but I have been there wendy, I have been the emotional caretaker for my family all my life, and after a while, it was TOO much to own by myself, so I am little by little LETTING GOOOOOOOO.
You know how I got to go to New York? My mom died. She left me some money that I am sure she wanted me to pay off my numerous debts with. Instead, I took my son and my niece to New York for Christmas. My son and I had the BEST time!! He will remember it forever..My debts will Always be there. Go Wendy, Go!!!!

Thanks Jezzi,
About acting my age, well I just need to learn to balance things. Balance is the key to everything. You can’t have too much of the ying without the yang. I've been acting on a whim to often and things are going to start biting me in the ass. As it is it's not a very pretty ass so I don't need bite marks all over it too. :) I feel a little better now. I’ve been the emotional caretaker too for quite sometime and I’m in between making a few life changes that’s why I’m all bent out of shape. Plus this morning’s drama is what triggered my guilt. It was a lot bigger than I presented it.

Anyhow, Steve thanks for making beautiful music. I don’t know if musicians really realize what impact their art has on others. I mean, you are doing in life what you love to do and as a result the fruit of that labor has immeasurable consequences that are often unseen. Personally when I listen to music the day to day bullshit has less impact and sometimes is altogether forgotten.

Thank you again,
Wendy

That’s enough personal stuff from me. Let’s get back to Ouija boards and Halloween. :)

yes, guilt, it's an awful feeling, and i've had a lot of it.
I'll tell my tale sometime, but for now. yeah to Jez. Wendy, let go of the guilt.
easy to say i know.
My family has had a way of holding me back with guilt, and the man i was married to, it just goes on and on...like i was the glue holding the whole lot of them together, but i gave that up. they were all fine when i did that, but now the family is all over the world, hardly keep in touch, but it got so tiring being the caretaker. i think i got more like that a couple of times really badly in my life. one was when my father left when i was 16, the other was when I had a baby and got married.
All that caretaking is like getting pulled every which way. O.o
i still get odd feelngs when i do stuff for myself. working on it like Jez says.
balance. :) I'm close to my grandparents, and I feel bad if i don't see them because I am the only family member around, and seem to be the only close family who cares tons about them. But they totally understand when I do something for myself, and they are actually pleased! :D And there I was feeling guilty.

Love
Lisa
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hey Wendy, we posted at the same time! :D

Wendy- Go I swear go!!! Jezzi-I totally agree! Some of the best times in your life is when you just do something on the spur when all is falling apart on the home front. New York is rad, it's so different than LA/California. Plus, there are so many other things NY has to offer. There is no doubt in my mind that you will find something out about yourself on this trip and when you come back you will have a new perspective. You need to step outside of your "situation!" Have a safe trip, tell "us" all about it when you get back. I am looking forward to it. Be safe and be well!!!!

Brett

Thanks for all the good wishies. You guys rock! now I'm gonna turn the internet off so I can get some work done before I start a sob story about loosing my job. :D

Take care,
Wendy

I meant Wishes, God you would think I would learn a thing or two from all these professors. After all I work for the English department.

Yes I agree with the peeps here too Wendy!! Don't forget to take ur camera and tell us all about it!! I live on the east coast and cannot go due to money, sh*t girl if I had the $ my ass would be gone ") u sound like me when I was 25. It gets better..trust me, I been there, u got more guts than me cause I'd never be able to go by myself..be careful!!!
Peace n' luv to u's

Have fun Wendy...and Jezebel...you sound like a very wise woman! I like your style :D

Cori---I have been meaning to give you props as well. You seem like a very spirited, passionate girl...I like reading your posts. We PaniCats need to stick together, are you going to book signing? Camp Freddy at the Wiltern? Let's hook up
jezzi

Unfortunately....I have a sucky job (well, very good job but with sucky rules)and can't take individual days off...only week blocks...and I live in Fresno, which is not close to LA at all so....unless TPC decides to come North, I'll not be seeing much action, I'm afraid :(