If These Walls Can Sing, We Can Be Anything
Working on settling in to my new place. Getting used to apartment living and being close to people in the city again. I have neighbors under me and to my side, and I am nervous that my lifestyle will once again get me in trouble. I have been here since the 8th of July, and only tonight did I actually get some writing done. If I think anyone can hear me while I am playing, it kills the vibe when I am trying to let the ideas out. I have been slowly being more and more "myself" as the days go on. I pray that I can just do my thing here and not bother anybody. One of the issues I face is that right about now (4:54am) is when I feel all clear and ready to write songs. During the day it's usually much more of an effort. Different ideas come out. Phones ring. Cars honk their horns. Babies cry. Dogs bark. Right now all I can hear is the whirr of the fan (it's been very hot for the past few days) and my typing. I just had a new song come out, I have been waiting for this one for a while, wrote the lyrics before I moved out of the last place, "Black Butterfly". It's a bit of a sad idea - about a young man who can only see one way to be with the one he loves who has left him. One very desperate, tragic way. A love song to the life he is about to leave behind in the hopes that he will be reunited with his love in the life to come.
I am crossing my fingers that the neighbor to my side doesn't give me shit tomorrow. She seems really cool, but even most cool people hate guys singing and playing guitar at 4 in the morning. Welcome to my life. This is the kind of shit I have had to conceal in the back of my mind every time I have rented a place, ever. Looking at the walls, the proximity of the next door neighbors to me, wondering how much noise I can make. Asking the question "Do the neighbors make much noise?" knowing that neighbor will be me.
For years I have had a "no apartment" guideline. With enough creative searching, there is always a bungalow or guest house somewhere. Those places fit me like a glove. This time, I didn't have the time or cash to really find the uber-place, so I found something in a Hollywood neighborhood that looked promising. Time will tell if it's gonna work out. If they don't like me here, I don't have many options; either write only during the day, or write really really quiet at night. Both options aren't that appetizing.
Got the Howard Benson mix of "Half Hearted" back a few days ago. Sounds good. Very produced. Kind of a trip to hear a song I wrote a couple years back on acoustic (in the middle of the night) just to make me feel better when I was heart broken about a girl sound all full and radio-y today. The title of the song is going to change, it's going to be "Why Cry" now. The second half of the old chorus is gone now and I don't end up saying "Half Hearted" anymore. The old post-chorus part "Why cry for you" is now the chorus.
We're still waiting to hear how the Benson version of "Blue Bruises" came out.
Listening to:
Elbow - Leaders of the Free World
Gomez - Liquid Skin
Fiona Apple - Extraordinary Machine
"Reality leaves a lot to the imagination" - John Lennon


Comments
time for sleep!
Posted by: The gig | July 26, 2005 06:28 AM
OK, I've skipped the Charlie bit, as it won't be on here til this weekend (can't wait...cannot wait.)
RP
x
Posted by: RecklessPrincess | July 26, 2005 06:36 AM
Have you got In Our Gun by Gomez? I bought it some time ago and have only recently given it enough time (on the car stereo).
I really love their "mix"...
About the writing thing, that sucks! I feel lucky to be living at a distance, and can pretty much plug in and play whenever I get the need. (what about everyone else?) Mind you I have to say I wouldn't mind being the neighbour being kept awake (although, same phrase over and over again...ner maybe not!)
love
Posted by: RecklessPrincess | July 26, 2005 06:46 AM
changed the song name!? Half Hearted was such a clever little double-entendre and didn't reveal the obvious. boo-hoo. ;)
My new place, despite being built in 1936 and having the appearance of 2-ft. thick walls, BLEEDS noise from one place to another. I constantly struggle with my playing volume cuz my "office/studio" shares a wall with the neighbors bedroom. Ug.
Tip from a friend: When the neighbor complains just plug in and give them 20 minutes of REAL noise and they'll be happy they live next to acoustic only playing from then on. Hehe.
Posted by: Craig | July 26, 2005 09:44 AM
Steve-Glad things are slowly working out. (Nice ink BTW :) As per the apartment issue, yeah, I'm the same way....I just had to move recently out of my rented house. I hate moving. The site of U-Haul’s make me sick…..The old place was rad, quiet and a nice neighborhood. I could play guitar an there was never a problem. I was bummed becuase my neighbor also played guitar..... The problem is....is that I had to move to another part of town, where I don't want to be, moved into another house, that sits behind another house, and I am SURROUNDED by Apartments. It’s all I could afford. I can only play guitar from 5-6pm with out pissing off the neighbors. At painfully low volumes. I have an electric guitar, not an acoustic, but if feels like that..... Sucks when your life is somehow controlled by people who are loud, obnoxious, feeling like you are surrounded by “Domestic Disputes galore/central,” and get this....... I have HELICOPTERS flying low over my house every friggin’ night. I also feel like I have to whisper or everybody hears what I am saying…… I swear it has to get better. I have to believe it will…….
Posted by: Brett- | July 26, 2005 09:46 AM
Steve!
Re: Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Haven't seen it yet, but when I found out Depp was playing Wonka I had doubts he'd be able to pull it off. I'm hoping the Corpse Bride will be better.
Living in an appartment can sure be a pain in the arse sometimes.. I like to sleep in but we currently have landscapers that come in every morning at 8am and work right in front of my window. The other night, or should I say morning since it was 4am, two gay guys were having relationship issues and arguing. This morning around 5am it was my roomate buzzed on wine babbling on the phone.
I would much rather be awakened by the sound of someone writing songs.
thanks for the pic and update
I hope Black Butterfly morphs into a full song and we get to hear it.
lots of love
M
Posted by: mortisha8 | July 26, 2005 10:31 AM
Hope to hear Black Butterfly soon...sounds like a beautiful and haunting premise for a song.
Did you get new ink???
Posted by: Cori | July 26, 2005 11:03 AM
Doesn't it seem fucking ridiculous that Dave Navarro and his wife are millionaires, living a life of luxury + excess, while Steve Isaacs has trouble making rent and has to live in a li'l apartment?
Just seems so goddamn crazy. That Steve has to do the daily grind to make ends meet. And now his creativity is stifled by his living situation: He has to worry about offending neighbors.
Whereas all the Navarro has to worry about is his makeup on Rockstar: INXS.
Come on, Navarro---- hook a guy up.
Jesus christ!!
Posted by: Seth | July 26, 2005 12:39 PM
I love Blue Bruises. The acoustic version you did on CFR was excellent!! Interested to hear how Benson's mix of it comes out.
*digs the stars*
Posted by: Bonita | July 26, 2005 02:10 PM
I agree with you about Fantastic Four, I had to walk out of the theater! I recommend "The 5 people you meet in heaven"
Posted by: Mandy | July 26, 2005 02:34 PM
Fingers are crossed that the neighbors are okay with you working in the wee small hours. I agree with Mortisha... there really are worse sounds to wake up to.
Great piccie.
Are the stars new?
Posted by: Cookie | July 26, 2005 03:04 PM
I like the stars =)
Posted by: Abby | July 26, 2005 03:25 PM
Seth,
Just so you know - Dave has been a total bro to me in this difficult period I have been going through. When we started the band, and I quit my day gig, I knew that I was in for some trouble ahead. There is no money at all for a long time when you are starting up a band from scratch.
The fact is that we in the band are musical collaborators and friends, and that is the level I like to keep it on. I don't want to be dependant on anybody- my situation is no one's responsibility but mine. That said, Dave has stepped in a couple times when my back was up against the wall, and saved my ass.
It's really not as weird as it may seem, the difference in our situations; we get along like good friends, laugh at the same shit, are blown away by the same art.
Some of my friends have their acts more together like Dave, and some are struggling looking for work. We all get along the same. Our only responsibility is to be good friends to each other.
Honestly, I have been making music for a long time, and am more used to being broke than having cash, it ain't such a big deal in the grand scheme.
Posted by: Steve Isaacs | July 26, 2005 05:34 PM
okay yeah... just realized that i put my last post on the previous thread... oops
i agree with Abby - LOVE the stars. they look really great.
Posted by: SnoWhite | July 26, 2005 05:36 PM
You just wait man. Wait till I get out there and we set up "The Official Panic Channel Commune". Yes Sir, it'll be a blast. However, this will be no 60's commune, nope, this one will have free wifi and showers and peace and love and amps and amps and then some REALLY big amps. Brett and I will be the co-masters of ceremonies, you and Dave and Chris and Perk will be the wise gurus on the hill, and the rest of the Community will actually live in the Community. Yep, I can actually see it all. Till then, blanket the walls and ceiling, write and play that guitar with reckless abandon, and remember you've got a some great folks here rooting for you, all the fucking way!
Posted by: Lyn | July 26, 2005 05:52 PM
I like your 13 stars tattoo. It's a good number.
Posted by: Diane/FRI13th | July 26, 2005 05:57 PM
Hey, Steve.
My post here was more of smart-ass comment, compared to my post over at 6767.com. Basically, I was hoping that it would prompt an honest response from either you or Dave.
When reading about your apartment and money troubles, one can't help but recognize the huge financial disparity between you and Dave. And I imagined it being really awkward in a band setting. But I'm glad you set me straight.
Like I said over at 6767.com, it'd probably be way weirder if you were "hired hand"---- on salary or whatever. Cuz nobody wants to be a kept man. We all want to be equals, with equal input into the creative stew. We all desire independence and respect---financial, creative, or otherwise.
I meant no offense by my post. And I sincerely appreciate you addressing my comments in a civil manner. Thank you.
I hope I didn't bring you down.
Good luck with your late-night sessions.
Posted by: Seth | July 26, 2005 06:00 PM
No - I didn't take any offense - it kinda seemed like you had my back, and I appreciate it.
Posted by: Steve Isaacs | July 26, 2005 06:08 PM
You know, man... it's easy to forget that behind all these internet pages, there are real people.
You (Steve Isaacs) are not simply words + images on a web page. You don't live your life just so we can gossip about it. You're a real human being, making your way in the world. You just happen to be in a band with a famous guy.
It's so damn easy to treat you (and Navarro, especially) as a commodity. Characters in our rock n' roll fantasies.
Yet, the people over at 6767.com are right---- it really is NOT any of my business. Your financial state and your personal affairs aren't anyone's business but your own.
Someone's Real Life should not fodder for online consumption.
I don't know what I was trying to achieve by posting about your financial state. But in the end, 'tis ME who has been schooled. And I learned a little bit about myself. I mean, jesus, I'm not even posting under my real name. I haven't been honest with you, so why should you have been honest with me?
I feel humbled and a bit ashamed, actually. But I learned a little something today. I'm sorry I brought it up and forced you to deal with it. Because it's none of my business.
Thanks for being so gracious, dude.
__
From here on out, I'm just gonna read your updates.
And then buy The Panic Channel cd when it comes out.
Cuz that's what it's all about. The music.
Posted by: Seth | July 26, 2005 08:55 PM
As a philosophy major, one of my favorite quotations:
"Men acquire a particular quality by constantly acting a particular way... you become just by performing just actions, temperate by performing temperate actions, brave by performing brave actions."
-Aristotle
By persevering you have acquired a strength that many will never have the opportunity to develop. Congrats to you for all that you have succeeded in thus far, and good luck in the future. You have a lot of people on your side - don't forget it. :)
Posted by: Courtney | July 26, 2005 09:19 PM
Hey Steve!
I'm an old Skycycle fan who's been listening to you since about 2000, and I am really looking forward to hearing your new Panic Channel album when its finished! I have been reading your blog entries here on your website for a long time now because I am an artist as well in my own right (I am a cartoonist and animator), and I often can connect with many of the things that you say.
About your blog post, I know exactly where you're coming from when you mentioned how frustrated you feel when you have the inspiration to create something at night because you have no distractions, but you can't because you either on't have enough time before you have to start doing "real life" things again or that you don't want to wake up your neighbors.
In my case I have just recently graduated from a university with a B.S. degree, and have moved back home from the dorms to live with my parents for the time being until I can save up and get myself an apartment. Back at college I used to be able to work on my cartoon creations whenever I had the free time and the desire. But since I am temporarily living back home I get constantly harassed by my parents when I am trying to draw pin-ups or animation because even though I make money at it, they don't see it as a "real job" and would rather see me work in a cubicle somewhere. Since animation, like music, takes a lot of concentration, I can't get myself to do it at all if I know that I am under the risk of being interrupted. It's one of those frustrating things. In any case, your song "Black Butterfly" sounds absoluted awesome, and I wish you the best with your new album!
Sincerely,
Dan
Posted by: Dan | July 26, 2005 09:27 PM
Hey Steve,
Try packing the room in with as much furniture and carpeting as possible to help absorb the sound so that the neighbors can't hear it as loud. Works for me. I play my guitar at ungodly volumes on the top floor of a 6 story apartment building and haven't gotten any complaints yet. Then again, the one time I tried that past midnight...well, it wasn't pleasant. 4am huh? Hmm...try singing in a closet maybe? Good luck with that.
Anyway, the new tatts rock! The meaning behind it really makes it stand out more too ("The Left hand is held by the vines and soil of the Earth. The Right is free, and reaches up to the stars"). Good stuff.
Take care Steve!
Peace!
- Sean
Posted by: Sean | July 26, 2005 10:47 PM
Hi Steve. I understand your situation. To a degree. All of our band is flat broke. Our bass player lives in a shitty neighbourhood here in London & runs the daily risk of having his shit stolen from his room. We all work our day jobs & pay our extortionate rents. We beleive that we could be the next Zeppelin. Ha! But it is strange that you live in this shit whilst in a band with Dave Navarro. He blows $10,000 on a game of poker whilst your art is violated by poor living conditions. I would never judge the guy. But you need a break. I can send you a little inspiration in the form of a link to my band site. Check out what we acheive on a next-to-nothing-budget. I'm sure it will help you out. We are a good band. This is all a challenge Steve. It's a test of faith. At least that's what I tell myself to make it through. Keep it up brother. Glynne x
www.scientadystene.com
Posted by: G7 | July 27, 2005 03:21 AM
Hi Steve,
It's been a really long time!! So glad to see that you are doing what you always dreamed of as a kid. Years ago I saw you on MTV and today I saw you playing poker with Dave Navarro! Pretty Cool! I haven't seen you in about 20 years, but wanted you to know that I am really happy for you.
Anita
Posted by: Anita M. | July 28, 2005 10:47 AM
I'm glad things are getting a little better for you, Steve..
Posted by: Junebug | July 28, 2005 01:35 PM
Stay strong, Steve. You have the talent to make this work out great, it's just taking a little time. You've taken the next step that most of us dream about but never get to realize: Ditching the day job to focus on the music that you love. So don't worry, there's plenty of us out here that have your back. We'll keep working the day jobs, playing gigs at dive bars on weekends, and packing our own equipment. Do your own thing, and don't fret anything but your guitar. It'll all work out.
Posted by: hank wood | July 28, 2005 02:04 PM
Apartment living is always a gamble, especially here in Hollywood. You only live once, so they say. Therefore, I say create from your soul and don't let the neighbors get in your way. If it becomes a problem, you can deal with it then. Can't let them ruin the process, especially with so many changes taking place in your world. Sounds like this could be a very productive period for you.
Posted by: Jonathan | July 28, 2005 05:49 PM
I havn't had chance to see Charlie yet but read you post about it . You confirmed what i thought, as i've never really rated Depp as an actor. I'll still be checking it out tonight though.
The tattoos are beautiful.
On 6767 Dave mentioned that with regards to TPC stuff there are lawyers and fees etc involved at the minute .Without wanting to pester, have you any idea when the album might be released?
Georgina x
Posted by: Georgina | July 29, 2005 06:16 AM
hey Steve
i know that feeling
trying to be creative (quietly),sometimes feels awkward and claustraphobic.
Posted by: Rich | July 30, 2005 05:40 AM